Why it’s so hard for Artists to find their way.

As the words flow from my fingertips onto my cheap Chinese replacement keyboard, I feel a sense of inspiration and acumen.

For those of you who’ve followed Power Painters over the past 4 years, it’s been a pretty infrequent endeavor. I’m 27 years old, and even though I’ve wanted to be an artist for as long as I can remember, there have always been internal and external obstacles that have knocked me off the path countless times.

I’m a going to use myself as a learning point for you, so hopefully you can ruthlessly (yet kindly) eliminate some of the weaknesses that will hold you back 100% of the time.

fortunately, with my new-found perceptions and clarity, I’ve been able to exile many of these shortcomings, and minimize the affects of other ones entirely.

These inadequacies included but are not limited to:

– Also wanting to be a musician and pursuing that at the wrong times (scattering my energies.)

– fearing just being known for one thing (belief system.)

– Hating and rebelling against the 9-5 grind (Still do, but more on that in later posts.)

-pursuing commercial modeling and acting as a career instead (Had some successes, but it tripped me up in terms of my goals.)

-thinking I could do absolutely everything on my own, and seldom reaching out (pride and fear.)

-poor habits regarding marijuana, porn, and associating myself with negative people (probably the worst saboteurs of success)

-mentally sabotaging myself whilst working (One of the hardest to overcome.)

-spending long periods in states of depression wherein no work was being done (the result of a poorly-designed life, not a chemical imbalance.)

-fearing commitment in many areas.

The list goes on and on.  I think you get the point by now.

It’s been a difficult journey of self-discovery and emotional buffetings. I’ve had some pretty sweet successes, but I’ve spent about 80% of my time in the mental mires of failure.

If I had the right attitude towards this journey when I started, things would have been 200% easier.

However, I was ego-driven, lacked work ethic, was afraid of responsibility, and sought gratification in multiple endeavors, as opposed to focusing like a laser on the ones that mattered.

Do I regret my journey thus far? Not especially. even hampered with 56k of student loan debt and multiple resets as far as my freelance career is concerned, I’ve learned a lot along the way. I suspect within the next 3 years I’ll be earning mid 6-figures and tackling better quality problems.

How can I be so sure? What makes me so certain that things will finally be different?

That’s easy. It’s because I’m now modeling the behaviors of other successful people.

If you do what successful people do, within reason, you’ll acquire similar results.

Yes, you’ll have to make tweaks to fit your disposition, your schedule,  and your circumstances, but success leaves clues.

Of course, it’s easier said than done.  I’ve been the poster child for that. I’ve been reading self-help and success books since I was 18 years old and I haven’t “made it” yet.

But I now know more than ever that our energies will manifest the greatness we have in us if we commit ourselves wholly to a purpose we set.

And trust me, I’ve set my purpose so many times. I’ve set it, reset it, faltered on it, and set it again. usually it was financially oriented, because while I had some pretty solid paychecks, I always end up near-broke due to violating fundamentals of accounting and business (plus the aforementioned lack of work ethic.)

To me, money isn’t the motivation. It’s just a way to keep score. As a kid I didn’t get into art to be rich, but coming from a divided lower-middle class household, it’s been a fixed point in my consciousness to become wealthy.

The thing is…Wealth seldom just happens. It’s a combination of hard work in a consistent vein, attuning one’s self to near-universal principles, and lastly; a heaping helping of honey from the golden spoon of lady luck.

Being a fast-learner has aided me greatly, but it also forced me to come to terms with my own limitations. We must know ourselves on as many levels as possible, and truly take stock of what our strengths and weaknesses are.

Search yourself for the things that others have complimented you on, the areas you’ve always had an affinity for, and implement those into your artistic and creative expression. Know those weak spots, and know when it’s wise to avoid or overcome them. There will be some weaknesses that must be spanned in order to reach our desired goals and live our purpose, but in order to do so you’ll have to work on yourself like you’re the masterpiece of your life.

When you lay mistakes down on your canvas and they’re apparent, you do your utmost to fix them. It’s much easier to fix issues in the beginning stages, but no matter the error, there’s usually room to start anew.

Sadly, if the mistake in real life is grave enough, that doesn’t hold quite as true. Life can make creating art seem like a cakewalk.

Fix yourself on a purpose. Take stock of where you’re at and who you are. Then commit fully to a flexible schedule that lives that purpose so you can look back on your life with the fewest regrets possible.

My purpose is to live a prosperous, artistically prolific, and masterful life that makes an impact on as many people as I can reach.

This sums up everything I want to do and more. This journey will test me on every level imaginable (like it hasn’t already) but now that I have a solid nexus from which to grow from, things will manifest differently.

I’ve been feeling incredibly vulnerable lately. Sharing the story of my pains through writing has the most powerful effect- it’s cleansing to make explicate the flaws that have soured one’s existence for so long.

Now to make sure those sour notes become sweet, but adding value to others and sticking to my purpose.

In all sincerity, it’s not about me, and I know that. As someone who spends quite a bit of time alone, it’s hard not to get the sense that everything revolves around you. But that’s far from the truth. We’re microscopic compared to the astronomical vastness around us. Just little vessels of life on a sphere suspended in space.

There’s a lot of freedom in that.

But I digress. We’re already at a thousand plus words. I just hope that these aspects of my story have somehow brought us closer together, and have called to attention some of the things indwelt in your being that need your care and attention to overcome.

Let’s continue to evolve in every capacity that we can, and help those around us to do as well. Create, share, grow, love, and give thanks.

Until next post, Power Painter!

-Taylor